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Sunday, February 8, 2009
beauty...
I am the worst at studying.
I seriously am. I feel like I already know all the material, which I do know it, but you can never review it too many times.
I know the answers, but the thing is I will be presenting the answers in front of at least 200 people, nerve raking? Oh yes. If it were written test I would probably kick ass at it.
We have reviewed the exact same material every day you pretty much become comfortable talking about it. I know the material, but my problem is getting it out there. Putting it into words.
So I am going to give it to you…
Haha
You are probably so happy you are reading this.
So I was talking to my contact in San Luis Potosi, Saul, who told me people were laughing at him at the idea of having a screenings, and he told me that the question that he was being asked the most was the following.
Why should I care about people in Africa?
Which every time I get that question the same thing pops into my head. That being, “how can you not relate to the human condition, you fucking asshole?” Something inside me kind of tells me that won’t go to well from stage.
I honestly don’t know how to answer questions like that.
I could go into a whole we are human, and we should care about our fellow human speech, but something inside me tells me that those people probably won’t care.
I do believe that. I love the generation I live in, because we are the ones who have started living not with the belief of us being part of a country, but us being a more global generation. I care for the people in Africa, because they are people. I know that if I were in their situation I would want other people to help the injustice in my community stop. I refuse to believe that I have no say in what happens in Africa. If other humans are getting killed, because one man is evil, I don’t care if you are in the other side of the globe. I refuse to stand, and do nothing about it.
It makes me sad that people don’t understand the importance of it.
For example, one of my friends, I would love to type out the entire conversation we had just so you can see how completely ignorant and evil people can be sometimes.
This happened kind of a long time ago, it might have been maybe the second week I had been here in San Diego. It still pisses me off, because it’s people like him that can totally bring a person down. One of my friends (kind of shaky, he pisses me off every two weeks or so) texted me asking me how I was, I of course was a happy butterfly so I told him I was doing great, he of course in his pessimist ways asked me why, I told him that I was finally doing something I cared about. He went into telling me that I was surrounded with people that had the same hope I did.
Him: “haha hope 4 wat? A better tomorrow? Haha”
Me: “yep”
Him: “lame”
That was part of our text message conversation.
It went on to me telling him to let me believe what I wanted to believe. Not to try and make mine seem lesser.
Him: “the thing is that u kant make that change u need thousands and its good that ure doing it I just believe that human beings destroy everythhn its on our nature”
Me: “I agree with you in aspect. I do not believe that I am going to stop the war. I am not claiming that. How did slavery stop? How did women get the right to vote? How did homosexuals get the right to work? Through the advocacy of a few. It starts with a few.”
BAM! History lesson! I love history….
Him: I see ure point but u should first be tryin to stop our war”
Oh! It’s kind of funny cos this is the exact type of comments people throw at you. The sad thing is that I can’t really answer people the way I would answer him.
He later went into asking me who I thought I was to interfere in Africa, into telling me I had been brainwashed, that things like that didn’t only happen in Africa, to be interested in something other than Africa, and laughing at me.
Some people are evil. He is right about that. I tend to forget about that, because beautiful people surround me, yes we all have our flaws, but the things they do overshadows them.
I honestly do not know where I am getting at.
I think it’s probably something along the lines of one dreams can easily be crushed by one person, but those dreams have the potential to be raised up again by 100 more people.
While one man is terrorizing several communities, there are thousands of people ready to stand and make him stop.
The world is surrounded by evilness, but what I have found out is that there is much more beauty to over shadow that evilness. You just have to open your eyes.
I seriously am. I feel like I already know all the material, which I do know it, but you can never review it too many times.
I know the answers, but the thing is I will be presenting the answers in front of at least 200 people, nerve raking? Oh yes. If it were written test I would probably kick ass at it.
We have reviewed the exact same material every day you pretty much become comfortable talking about it. I know the material, but my problem is getting it out there. Putting it into words.
So I am going to give it to you…
Haha
You are probably so happy you are reading this.
So I was talking to my contact in San Luis Potosi, Saul, who told me people were laughing at him at the idea of having a screenings, and he told me that the question that he was being asked the most was the following.
Why should I care about people in Africa?
Which every time I get that question the same thing pops into my head. That being, “how can you not relate to the human condition, you fucking asshole?” Something inside me kind of tells me that won’t go to well from stage.
I honestly don’t know how to answer questions like that.
I could go into a whole we are human, and we should care about our fellow human speech, but something inside me tells me that those people probably won’t care.
I do believe that. I love the generation I live in, because we are the ones who have started living not with the belief of us being part of a country, but us being a more global generation. I care for the people in Africa, because they are people. I know that if I were in their situation I would want other people to help the injustice in my community stop. I refuse to believe that I have no say in what happens in Africa. If other humans are getting killed, because one man is evil, I don’t care if you are in the other side of the globe. I refuse to stand, and do nothing about it.
It makes me sad that people don’t understand the importance of it.
For example, one of my friends, I would love to type out the entire conversation we had just so you can see how completely ignorant and evil people can be sometimes.
This happened kind of a long time ago, it might have been maybe the second week I had been here in San Diego. It still pisses me off, because it’s people like him that can totally bring a person down. One of my friends (kind of shaky, he pisses me off every two weeks or so) texted me asking me how I was, I of course was a happy butterfly so I told him I was doing great, he of course in his pessimist ways asked me why, I told him that I was finally doing something I cared about. He went into telling me that I was surrounded with people that had the same hope I did.
Him: “haha hope 4 wat? A better tomorrow? Haha”
Me: “yep”
Him: “lame”
That was part of our text message conversation.
It went on to me telling him to let me believe what I wanted to believe. Not to try and make mine seem lesser.
Him: “the thing is that u kant make that change u need thousands and its good that ure doing it I just believe that human beings destroy everythhn its on our nature”
Me: “I agree with you in aspect. I do not believe that I am going to stop the war. I am not claiming that. How did slavery stop? How did women get the right to vote? How did homosexuals get the right to work? Through the advocacy of a few. It starts with a few.”
BAM! History lesson! I love history….
Him: I see ure point but u should first be tryin to stop our war”
Oh! It’s kind of funny cos this is the exact type of comments people throw at you. The sad thing is that I can’t really answer people the way I would answer him.
He later went into asking me who I thought I was to interfere in Africa, into telling me I had been brainwashed, that things like that didn’t only happen in Africa, to be interested in something other than Africa, and laughing at me.
Some people are evil. He is right about that. I tend to forget about that, because beautiful people surround me, yes we all have our flaws, but the things they do overshadows them.
I honestly do not know where I am getting at.
I think it’s probably something along the lines of one dreams can easily be crushed by one person, but those dreams have the potential to be raised up again by 100 more people.
While one man is terrorizing several communities, there are thousands of people ready to stand and make him stop.
The world is surrounded by evilness, but what I have found out is that there is much more beauty to over shadow that evilness. You just have to open your eyes.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Invisible Children Spring 2009 Roadies
MEXICO
Me, Chad, Andrea, Rob, Willie, and Colleen.
We kick so much ass. All the time. In life. I love them. We are awesome.
We head out until March, which makes me a bit sad. We are the first ever Mexico roadies, and we own it.
Also, as some of you can tell there are only two Mexican looking people in our team, since technically we are the only two Mexicans in it. We represent an entire culture. It's ridiculously intense. Also, Colleen is not going on the road with us she is our assistant, but I am working on a proposal for the people in charge to let us take her with us cos she kicks so much ass.
MID-ATLANTIC
My favorite team besides mine. I don't think I should write that, but I think it's obvious.
Team people:
Brady, Shannon, Kelly Trujillo, and Jonathan.
GREAT LAKES
I room with the two girls, and I love them.
Chris, Domonique, Sabrina, and Austin.
SO-CAL
The prettiest team.
Orion, Geoff, Ashley G, and Ashley W.
Ashley W saved my ankle. I will forever love her because of that.
EAST COAST
I teach Ivory Spanish all the time. Also, Ivory was the lead singer of a band I always forget the name of. The two girls are flipping sweet, and Nathan is probably the coolest looking dude in the world.
Team:
Nathan, Joleah, Ivory, and Sarah.
DEEP SOUTH
They are awesome. Gabe and Jenna were two of the first people I met.
Team:
Zach, Clara, Gabe, and Jenna.
PACIFIC NORTH WEST
Super cool team.
Annie is probably the funniest person in the house. Derick and Matt are just two really cool looking guys, and Rima is just one of those people that you want to talk to.
Team:
Annie, Derick, Matt and Rima.
NEW ENGLAND
Cool team. Every single person in this team is completely different.
All awesome soul, just completely different.
Also, Anna and I are apparently moving to Mexico together after this tour is done.
Team:
John, Brit, Tyler, and Anna.
TEXAS:
I love them.
I room with the two girls, and they both pretty much make my life a little bit better.
Go to Austin for the big event damn it!
Team:
Brynne, Rory, Daniel, and Mallory.
MOUNTAIN WEST
Super cool!!
Team:
Kenneth, Page, Kelly C, and Cole
I love them all. Middle America is still missing, their picture aren't up yet, they will be.
I hope you guys get to meet some of them, depending where you are.
Peace,
Zari
Annie is probably the funniest person in the house. Derick and Matt are just two really cool looking guys, and Rima is just one of those people that you want to talk to.
Team:
Annie, Derick, Matt and Rima.
NEW ENGLAND
Cool team. Every single person in this team is completely different.
All awesome soul, just completely different.
Also, Anna and I are apparently moving to Mexico together after this tour is done.
Team:
John, Brit, Tyler, and Anna.
TEXAS:
I love them.
I room with the two girls, and they both pretty much make my life a little bit better.
Go to Austin for the big event damn it!
Team:
Brynne, Rory, Daniel, and Mallory.
MOUNTAIN WEST
Super cool!!
Team:
Kenneth, Page, Kelly C, and Cole
I love them all. Middle America is still missing, their picture aren't up yet, they will be.
I hope you guys get to meet some of them, depending where you are.
Peace,
Zari
Friday, January 23, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
The Team...
So I realized that I have not really taken the time to talk about my team at all, which both make me weird and a horrible teammate.
It makes me weird because I share a corner with all of them (no we aren’t prostitutes, we just have our desks there), and I will live in a van with them for the next couple of months.
I’m a horrible teammate because I haven’t really mentioned them on my blogs.
So I’m dedicating this whole blog to my team, and to people who I which were on my team… So basically I’m just going to mention them… haha
Ok so lets start:
The first one I met is:
Chad Houseman, he is pretty much the coolest person ever. He is just uberly hyper, and pretty much gets along with everything that moves and breathes.
Then we have Rob Juarez, who up until today I hadn’t really talked to. He is pretty cool as well. He is a totally smart guy.
Then we have Willie Chase, who is probably the coolest person in the world, but he does not realize that he is yet. He is smart, has an awesome Spanish accent, and is a loud human being.
And finally we have Andrea Nakhla who I have not gotten the pleasure to talk as much as the guys, but the couple of conversations we’ve had had been pleasant. We share a common taste in music, which is good.
We also have Colleen Dougherty who isn’t technically on the Mexico Tour but she basically owns our hearts and souls. She has to be the best assistant of the world. She has it covered.
Ok so that’s my team…
Haha
Horrible teammate.
So today I helped translate the movie we are going to show while touring. It seriously took me 30 minutes to translate a 5:30 minute video. Which I did not realize was in English until half way through it. I was reading the subtitles and they made total sense, I realized they did because they were in English. That’s when you know you have way to much on your brain when you do not know what language you are reading, but you still comprehend it.
Kelly left me. Just in case she reads this she should know that I don’t like her right now, but I appreciate her sharing her pasta with me tonight.
We made a bit to much pasta by the way, like two containers too much.
I think I might be done. I am rambling, and I am kind of tired.
Just remember… Mexico kicks ass….
It makes me weird because I share a corner with all of them (no we aren’t prostitutes, we just have our desks there), and I will live in a van with them for the next couple of months.
I’m a horrible teammate because I haven’t really mentioned them on my blogs.
So I’m dedicating this whole blog to my team, and to people who I which were on my team… So basically I’m just going to mention them… haha
Ok so lets start:
The first one I met is:
Chad Houseman, he is pretty much the coolest person ever. He is just uberly hyper, and pretty much gets along with everything that moves and breathes.
Then we have Rob Juarez, who up until today I hadn’t really talked to. He is pretty cool as well. He is a totally smart guy.
Then we have Willie Chase, who is probably the coolest person in the world, but he does not realize that he is yet. He is smart, has an awesome Spanish accent, and is a loud human being.
And finally we have Andrea Nakhla who I have not gotten the pleasure to talk as much as the guys, but the couple of conversations we’ve had had been pleasant. We share a common taste in music, which is good.
We also have Colleen Dougherty who isn’t technically on the Mexico Tour but she basically owns our hearts and souls. She has to be the best assistant of the world. She has it covered.
Ok so that’s my team…
Haha
Horrible teammate.
So today I helped translate the movie we are going to show while touring. It seriously took me 30 minutes to translate a 5:30 minute video. Which I did not realize was in English until half way through it. I was reading the subtitles and they made total sense, I realized they did because they were in English. That’s when you know you have way to much on your brain when you do not know what language you are reading, but you still comprehend it.
Kelly left me. Just in case she reads this she should know that I don’t like her right now, but I appreciate her sharing her pasta with me tonight.
We made a bit to much pasta by the way, like two containers too much.
I think I might be done. I am rambling, and I am kind of tired.
Just remember… Mexico kicks ass….
Sunday, January 18, 2009
First Weekend in Sandy Eggo
It’s been an interesting weekend.
We went to work on Friday, and were let go early so we could participate in a picture scavenger hunt.
The rules were as follows:
1) You had to stay with your team.
2) After staying with your team. You had to find other complete teams, and come together to complete a group of 15.
3) The Mexico team and two others got together. (I have no clue what teams they were. I know the people I just don’t know what region they have.)
4) We went to take a couple of pictures in different parts of San Diego.
After that, the Mexico team went to have dinner. We went to some Japanese restaurant. It was delicious. We talk. Shared food. Acted like a team. Etc.
Got home (the villa) and I went to sleep, because I am tired and I am an old lady inside.
Saturday.
I woke up kind of early. I showered. Ate breakfast. You know, the average stuff.
I was reading in the garage, and was in the midst of a couple of girls talking about going to get their nose pierced. I told them that they should do it, cos I’m supportive like that.
I saw Kelly and Shannon walk by the garage door so I got up and followed them (mostly because they are my favorites)
They invited me to go to some stores. I decided to go. We went to Mission Beach.
Sabrina went as well. She is awesome! She is my bed neighbor.
We walked around some stores. We went to stick our feet in the water (it was freezing.)
We got lost on our way back, but while Shannon and Sabrina were freaking out on the front sit. Kelly and I started talking, and found out we had a little too much in common.
We got to the villa. Shannon and Kelly left for their team dinner. I sat and bothered other nice people. I read a couple of more chapters from my book.
Shannon and Kelly came back. Kelly and I stayed out in the balcony for a while before I went to sleep.
Sunday.
I went to OB today. Lisa (one of our Regional Managers) goes there every Sunday to have a cook out with a couple of the local homeless people.
It was amazing.
I respect her so much. I mean she works for IC, which I already respected her for. It was just seeing her today though she had a personal relationship with almost every person on that beach. I think it’s beautiful to see so much beauty coming out of one single person.
So I went there. I saw an awesome homeless guy singing songs. He had a pretty good voice.
I then went to Nico’s and had a “burrito.” I came back to the Villa. I decided to ditch the concert for several reasons. Kelly and I went to Vons to get some groceries. I was an interesting experience coming back to the villa. Lets just say I lost some sensation on my hands for a couple of minutes.
It was a good weekend. Tomorrow is back to work. I am looking forward to it.
It was a good to be able to rest for a little while.
I’m looking forward to Mexico, with both anxiety and excitement. I’ve been reading up on all the things that have been going on in Mexico lately, and part of me is dying to go just to assure myself that not all of Mexico is like that. I want to see it first hand that Mexico has hope. I am, after all, a Mexican.
I feel like I’ve been in San Diego for more than a week. I feel like I’ve been here for at least two weeks. I think I feel like this because I have never done anything as useful all my life. I feel like I’ve been studying Uganda’s history all my life. I feel like I’ve known these people for months now. I like that. I like that people like Kelly, Shannon, Sabrina, and Mallory have me figured out. Today, Kelly was talking to one of her friends on the phone, and I was sitting at the kitchen table and Kelly told her friend that she couldn’t say something at that precise moment. I think her friend probably asked who she was with, and Kelly said that she was only with me, that she wasn’t worried about me hearing what she was going to say that she was worried somebody else might walk into the room and would get insulted. Then she said something along the lines of me not being capable of ever getting insulted. Which I thought was hilarious, and a complete compliment.
Anyways after that lovely compliment, and me shinning like the bright star that I am. Kelly and I (I know you probably hate Kelly already, you shouldn’t she is awesome. Don’t tell her though) went to Vons cos I needed to buy some food. So we walked to Vons, which is kind of far away. I loaded the cart with things I needed, and realized after I payed that I was going to have to carry them back. It was unfortunate. I did buy enough food to last me the next two weeks.
Right now I am in the process of finishing doing laundry (which by the way Kelly participated in as well… hahaha… next blog I promise to find another character as well. Kelly will probably take place in it as well) So I decided to write a blog, which I know have a feeling is a bit to long.
Anyways,
I love you mother,
I love you father,
I love you sister,
And
I love you whoever else might be reading this.
We went to work on Friday, and were let go early so we could participate in a picture scavenger hunt.
The rules were as follows:
1) You had to stay with your team.
2) After staying with your team. You had to find other complete teams, and come together to complete a group of 15.
3) The Mexico team and two others got together. (I have no clue what teams they were. I know the people I just don’t know what region they have.)
4) We went to take a couple of pictures in different parts of San Diego.
After that, the Mexico team went to have dinner. We went to some Japanese restaurant. It was delicious. We talk. Shared food. Acted like a team. Etc.
Got home (the villa) and I went to sleep, because I am tired and I am an old lady inside.
Saturday.
I woke up kind of early. I showered. Ate breakfast. You know, the average stuff.
I was reading in the garage, and was in the midst of a couple of girls talking about going to get their nose pierced. I told them that they should do it, cos I’m supportive like that.
I saw Kelly and Shannon walk by the garage door so I got up and followed them (mostly because they are my favorites)
They invited me to go to some stores. I decided to go. We went to Mission Beach.
Sabrina went as well. She is awesome! She is my bed neighbor.
We walked around some stores. We went to stick our feet in the water (it was freezing.)
We got lost on our way back, but while Shannon and Sabrina were freaking out on the front sit. Kelly and I started talking, and found out we had a little too much in common.
We got to the villa. Shannon and Kelly left for their team dinner. I sat and bothered other nice people. I read a couple of more chapters from my book.
Shannon and Kelly came back. Kelly and I stayed out in the balcony for a while before I went to sleep.
Sunday.
I went to OB today. Lisa (one of our Regional Managers) goes there every Sunday to have a cook out with a couple of the local homeless people.
It was amazing.
I respect her so much. I mean she works for IC, which I already respected her for. It was just seeing her today though she had a personal relationship with almost every person on that beach. I think it’s beautiful to see so much beauty coming out of one single person.
So I went there. I saw an awesome homeless guy singing songs. He had a pretty good voice.
I then went to Nico’s and had a “burrito.” I came back to the Villa. I decided to ditch the concert for several reasons. Kelly and I went to Vons to get some groceries. I was an interesting experience coming back to the villa. Lets just say I lost some sensation on my hands for a couple of minutes.
It was a good weekend. Tomorrow is back to work. I am looking forward to it.
It was a good to be able to rest for a little while.
I’m looking forward to Mexico, with both anxiety and excitement. I’ve been reading up on all the things that have been going on in Mexico lately, and part of me is dying to go just to assure myself that not all of Mexico is like that. I want to see it first hand that Mexico has hope. I am, after all, a Mexican.
I feel like I’ve been in San Diego for more than a week. I feel like I’ve been here for at least two weeks. I think I feel like this because I have never done anything as useful all my life. I feel like I’ve been studying Uganda’s history all my life. I feel like I’ve known these people for months now. I like that. I like that people like Kelly, Shannon, Sabrina, and Mallory have me figured out. Today, Kelly was talking to one of her friends on the phone, and I was sitting at the kitchen table and Kelly told her friend that she couldn’t say something at that precise moment. I think her friend probably asked who she was with, and Kelly said that she was only with me, that she wasn’t worried about me hearing what she was going to say that she was worried somebody else might walk into the room and would get insulted. Then she said something along the lines of me not being capable of ever getting insulted. Which I thought was hilarious, and a complete compliment.
Anyways after that lovely compliment, and me shinning like the bright star that I am. Kelly and I (I know you probably hate Kelly already, you shouldn’t she is awesome. Don’t tell her though) went to Vons cos I needed to buy some food. So we walked to Vons, which is kind of far away. I loaded the cart with things I needed, and realized after I payed that I was going to have to carry them back. It was unfortunate. I did buy enough food to last me the next two weeks.
Right now I am in the process of finishing doing laundry (which by the way Kelly participated in as well… hahaha… next blog I promise to find another character as well. Kelly will probably take place in it as well) So I decided to write a blog, which I know have a feeling is a bit to long.
Anyways,
I love you mother,
I love you father,
I love you sister,
And
I love you whoever else might be reading this.
Friday, January 16, 2009
This week is finally over
First week of training is over, and I am completely drained.
I have been running in less than 5 hours of sleep a day (that doesn’t sound as bad as it feels.)
I love it though, every single aspect of it.
I love not being completely aware of where it is I am going yet.
I love not being able to run and hide. I live in a house with 44 other people.
I love that within these walls I have met people that I feel like I’ve known for a couple of months.
So here are a couple of things I’ve done this week that have really stood out.
1) We got a lesson on life by Jason. Who, by the way, is the most incredible person. ever.
2) I got to eat with the entire Mexico team. Woot woot Mexico!
3) I have has some crazy awesome conversations with this girl named Mallory. She pretty much kicks ass at life, and everything to do with it.
4) I have made so much of fun of Kelly and Shannon. Pretty much in a way that should either be illegal or documented for the world to learn.
5) I have heard the first bit of mouth trashing other people (I hope this doesn’t end bad)
6) I was questioned, and responded in Spanish. Which ended up in a loud response of applause, because it wasn’t expected.
7) Gabe’s mom brought all the roadies food. Not exactly sure what it was, but by God was it delicious.
8) Have a new appreciation for food.
9) Have become extremely budgeted. I am scared of running out of money.
10) Have gotten in fights with people from El Paso. Weird.
11) Took a quiz.
12) Watched Scrubs. Oh yes I fit it in.
13) Talked to my lovely father for a couple of minutes today. He is awesome.
14) Talk to my sister. She’s pretty.
15) Took some pictures with another two teams.
16) Translated a couple of emails for some of my teammates.
17) I like Kelly Baker. Just a random fact that I thought everybody should know.
I love this city it’s amazing.
I’m kind of falling asleep while I am typing this. So I’m going to go.
Good night lovelies.
Besos
I have been running in less than 5 hours of sleep a day (that doesn’t sound as bad as it feels.)
I love it though, every single aspect of it.
I love not being completely aware of where it is I am going yet.
I love not being able to run and hide. I live in a house with 44 other people.
I love that within these walls I have met people that I feel like I’ve known for a couple of months.
So here are a couple of things I’ve done this week that have really stood out.
1) We got a lesson on life by Jason. Who, by the way, is the most incredible person. ever.
2) I got to eat with the entire Mexico team. Woot woot Mexico!
3) I have has some crazy awesome conversations with this girl named Mallory. She pretty much kicks ass at life, and everything to do with it.
4) I have made so much of fun of Kelly and Shannon. Pretty much in a way that should either be illegal or documented for the world to learn.
5) I have heard the first bit of mouth trashing other people (I hope this doesn’t end bad)
6) I was questioned, and responded in Spanish. Which ended up in a loud response of applause, because it wasn’t expected.
7) Gabe’s mom brought all the roadies food. Not exactly sure what it was, but by God was it delicious.
8) Have a new appreciation for food.
9) Have become extremely budgeted. I am scared of running out of money.
10) Have gotten in fights with people from El Paso. Weird.
11) Took a quiz.
12) Watched Scrubs. Oh yes I fit it in.
13) Talked to my lovely father for a couple of minutes today. He is awesome.
14) Talk to my sister. She’s pretty.
15) Took some pictures with another two teams.
16) Translated a couple of emails for some of my teammates.
17) I like Kelly Baker. Just a random fact that I thought everybody should know.
I love this city it’s amazing.
I’m kind of falling asleep while I am typing this. So I’m going to go.
Good night lovelies.
Besos
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